Life lately

23/05/2025

So much has happened lately. I had exams in january, so the entire holliday season I had to study. The good thing is: I only failed one exam. So in August I'll have to retake it, but the only thing that I'll have to retake as of now is my oral exam French. So I won't even have to study all that much. I also had two weeks of internship in February, and that went well. And during the two week Easter break I had to work. So I've been busy with preparing for my second two week internship from the Easter break until about two weeks ago. And then I had my last two week internship of the year.

I've been busy, but that's life I guess. And normally I would be teaching right now and doing the last day of my internship. But on sunday evening I got an email from my mentor to tell me I'm not allowed to come back and my internship had been terminated that day. That sucked! The entire weekend I was preparing my stuff for teaching the next week, and suddenly she said I can't continue my internship. So the entire evening and next day was spent crying. And on monday I had a meeting with my college to discuss why my internship was terminated and what I'll need to do now. I'd say that was helpful, but then I'd be lying. I felt like she was blaming me the entire time. And I know that I'm not the perfect student, and that I make mistakes. But I did my best to improve. And I felt like both my mentor-teacher and my coach (from college) were against me and hated me. I know I'm being irrational, but life sucks right now and I feel like everybody is against me. Except for my mom, she's been super supportive and helping me figure things out.

But now I need sto study and prepare for my exams in two weeks, and then in July I'll need to work again. And in September, when school starts again, I'll give my new internship all that I have. And I'll make sure I'll pass and be able to go to my last year of college. So that I can finally graduate and become a teacher.

My week has been filled with crying, being angry, watching a ton of YouTube videos and going swimming. Because since the beginning of the year I try to go swimming at least once a week. But I couldn't go during my internship, because when I got home I didn't habe the time and the pool is closed during the weekend. So I already went swimming on tuesday, and I'll go swimming today. But last time some random dude came op to me while I was showering (the showers are public and you keep your bathingsuit on) and said that I swim to slow. But this man was only swimming for the last half hour, and I was swimming for the entire hour and a half. So of course I was tired near the end and I was swimming slowely. But has he considered moving to a faster lane? Because if he wants to swim fast, there's an entire lane for that. And I swim in the medium speed lane, but according to him I need to move to the lane for elderly people. WTF! But I can't let my hobby be ruined because of some random entitled man. If he doesn't want anyone in his lane he should get his own pool and not swim in the public pool. And complain that other people who have been swimming for over an hour are faster then he is when he hadn't even done one lap!

Anyways, that's been my life lately. So a lot has happened, and I'll try to post more often. But I can't promise anything!

Byee! <3